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30/05/06 | יום שלישי




לכבודה ולכבוד כל האחרים מוגשת פה הצעה לסדר.

נכון, פאדיחה, לא נעים ככה השקיפות הזו אבל לשחרר את העבר בתחת שלי, העבר לא משחרר אותנו. רק פייר,

זה כולה מילים של אחרים, לא?!


על הדיכאון ועל הרצון לסיים את הכל

Crazy

by Gnarls Barkley


I remember when I lost my mind

There was something so pleasant about that pace.

Even your emotions had an echo

In so much space

And when you're out there

Without care,

Yeah, I was out of touch

But it wasn't because I didn't know enough

I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy

Probably

And I hope that you are having the time of your life

But think twice,

That's my only advice

Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you,

Who do you think you are,

Ha ha ha bless your soul

You really think you're in control

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb

And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them

Ever since I was little, ever since I was little

It looked like fun


על ירון שחזר, אפילו שחשבתי שאני לא רוצה

Stolen Car

by Beth Orton


You walked into my house last night

I couldn't help but notice

A light that was long gone

Still burning strong

You were sitting

Your fingers like fuses

Your eyes were cinnamon

While every line speaks the language of love

It never held the meaning I was thinking of

And I can't decide over right or wrong

I guess sometimes you need the place where you belong


על אלעד שאהבתי ולא הצלחתי להפסיק

The One You Love

by Rufus Wainwright


The mind has so many pictures

Why can't I sleep with my eyes open

The mind has so many memories

Can you remember what it looks like when I cry


I'm Trying, trying to tell you

All that I can in a sweet and velvet tongue

But no words ever could sell you

Sell you on me after all that I have done


על הפחד שירון יעזוב בגלל שאני אבוד ועל כמה שטובים הרגעים שלנו

Afterglow

by INXS


Here I am, lost in the ashes of time, but who wants tomorrow?

In between the longing to hold you again

I'm caught in your shadow, I'm losing control

My mind drifts away, we only have today

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go I will find my way when I see your eyes

Now I'm living in your afterglow


על הכלא הנורא הזה שנקרא החיים שלי

Wise Up - Magnolia Soundtracks

by Aimee Mann

It's not
What you thought
When you first began it
You got
What you want
Now you can hardly stand it though,
By now you know
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
You're sure
There's a cure
And you have finally found it
You think
One drink
Will shrink you 'til you're underground
And living down
But it's not going to stop
So just...give up


על ירון וסרוסי ומה שהיה

You Oughta Know

by Alanis Morissette


You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to but you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her
And I'm here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It's not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

You, you, you oughta know


על ירון שרוצה לשנות ואני שרוצה להשתנות

Billy Joel Cover (Happy Endings OST) Just The Way You Are

by Maggie Gyllenhaa


Don't go changing, to try and please me

You never let me down before

Don't imagine you're too familiar

And I don't see you anymore

I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble

We never could have come this far

I took the good times, I'll take the bad times

I'll take you just the way you are


Don't go trying some new fashion

Don't change the color of your hair

You always have my unspoken passion

Although I might not seem to care


I don't want clever conversation

I never want to work that hard

I just want someone that I can talk to

I want you just the way you are.


I need to know that you will always be

The same old someone that I knew

What will it take till you believe in me

The way that I believe in you.


I said I love you and that's forever

And this I promise from the heart

I could not love you any better

I love you just the way you are.


על ג'ורג' שלא רצה את ירון בשבילי אז ואותי היום

One

by Mary J Blidge featuring u2


Is it getting better

Or do you feel the same

Will it make it easier on you

Now you got someone to blame

You say

One love

One life

When it's one need

In the night

It's one love

We get to share it

It leaves you baby

If you don't care for it

Did I disappoint you?

Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?

You act like you never had love

And you want me to go without

Well it's too late

Tonight

To drag tha past out

Into the light

We're one

But we're not the same

We get to carry each other

Carry each other


על מה שהרגיש דויד, כשהיה איתי אז, ועל מה שאני מרגיש היום

Patience

by Nerina Pallot


Been good, been bad, got worse, got better.

I feel I know myself when i'm looking in the mirror.

Been hurt, been loved - I'm scarred, not bitter.

I am an angel with the knowledge of a sinner.

But what do I do, and how should I be?

When I look at myself, I can only see me....


I need a little patience...

Been hard, been soft, been both, been neither

Above it all, I am only a survivor.

Been down,been low, got up, got higher -

We are only human, all just liars...

So I wait for the day when I open my eyes

And I look to myself, but it's no big surprise


I need a little patience...

Well i'm sitting here and sinking and i'm on the '8th floor

And i'm thinking do I jump or should I stay around for more?

I watch my friends get bigger and get better and get richer

But i'm not bitter

Time is ticking ticking ticking ticking ticking on with a vengeance

I want it all


על העבודה

The Boxer

by Paul Simon - Emmylou Harris cover


Then I'm laying out my winter clothes

And wishing I was gone

Going home

Where the New York City winters aren't bleeding me

Bleeding me, going home

In the clearing stands a boxer

And a fighter by his trade

And he carries the reminders

Of ev'ry glove that layed him down

Or cut him till he cried out

In his anger and his shame

"I am leaving, I am leaving"

But the fighter still remains


על פליקס שלא יסלח לי לעולם, והבושה והבושה והבושה...

It's Been Awhile

by Staind


And it's been awhile

Since I could look at myself straight

And it's been awhile

Since I said I'm sorry

And it's been awhile

Since I've seen the way the candles light your face

And it's been awhile

But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?

Just make this go away

Just one more peaceful day!


על ההבטחה לירון שעוד חודשיים נחייך לעולם שאנחנו בחרנו להקים ביחד

A Love That Will Never Grow Old

by Original Soundtrack


When you wake up the world may have changed

But trust in me, I'll never falter or fail

Just the smile in your eyes, it can light up the night,

And your laughter's like wind in my sails.

Lean on me, let our hearts beat in time,

Feel strength from the hands that have held you so long.

Who cares where we go on this rugged old road

In a world that may say that we're wrong.


לסיום על המחשבה האופטימית שמחר יהיה אחרת בשבילנו

Stronger

by Sugababes


I'll make it through the rainy days

I'll be the one who stands up longer than the rest

When my landscape changes, rearranges

I'll be stronger than I've ever been

No more stillness, just sunrise

Everything's gonna be alright


I know that there's gonna be a change

Better find your way out of your fear

If you wanna come with me then that's the gotta be